I’m here to create a safe environment where people with mental illness (and without) can find someone who relates. If I can help even one person get through life more peacefully with my words and support, that is my goal. Someone who might find solace within the insights and learnings about living with mental illness for four decades. I did not intend to write this as my first post, as it is not solely about mental health; it’s about mental health and cancer.
Later this week I have a double breast MRI, with and without contrast, to check out a few new abnormalities. I say new because I’m a breast cancer survivor of 18 years and hadn’t seen anything like this before, plus the weirdness seemed to appear overnight.
It’s most likely an errant or damaged implant from my reconstruction after double mastectomy. Implants don’t last forever.
Or it’s cancer. That can’t (won’t) be it. Still, all I can think is, it’s either cancer or implant surgery. So big anxiety surrounding the tiny chance this could be cancer, the kind that your doctor allows you to take a double dose of anxiety meds for to avoid a full blown panic attack. I’m having flashbacks to September 2007 when I went through the felt a lump/went to doc/got ultrasound/got biopsy/got diagnosed stages. Like it was yesterday.
Four more days to wait for the MRI. I’ve already been waiting for two weeks after having made the appointment.
Okay…hey, I appreciate your listening to my ramblings about PTSD. In the next post I’ll share more about my overall mental health. It’ll be therapeutic to get out of my head and onto (digital) paper, and maybe someone out there can relate.
Cheers + peace
Kathy
Lose Your Mind Find Your Soul 
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